I won't deny that. [The crappiest. Her expression softens, though, from its guilty look.]
Very much so. I suppose when considering that, it's...not an event that I regret. [Even if it's a sore memory. Life became a little easier after that.]
I'd rather not have gone through it a second time, mind. Not when there are friendlier dogs around.
He thrums his fingers on his table, finally looking up at her clearly (even if he's trying not to stare at her body, which is hard, because - y'know. All that skin.]
Maybe if you want me to kill a few innocent birds with my pitch.
[Castiel knows he should probably be concerned about Rosie's disappearance, and on some level he is--he's also a bit guilty, since he's pretty sure he contributed to it--but on the other hand, some part of him is selfishly glad that it's more quiet. He would be a whole lot more guilty about that as well if it weren't that he's been feeling so unwell the past few days, and less people and more quiet means he can do more sleeping.
Or trying to sleep, anyway, as that's still tough as always, and the worse he feels the less he's managing it anyway. Eventually he gets up from his usual corner to move closer to the fire, but walking is surprisingly difficult to coordinate and he ends up wobbling and clutching with his one good arm onto the nearest object, which happens to be Sam.]
Hello.
[Said like there's nothing weird at all about this.]
No, Sam is not exactly a happy camper lately. He's pretty annoyed at Rosie, for one thing, under all the usual concern, because she knows this kind of thing — friends vanishing, running away — is pretty much a horrible thing to do to someone. Doesn't matter how her self-worth is; she knows better. And now Castiel is doing that annoying thing where he doesn't admit he needs more than just a little sleep.
He's been human before, he knows the score.
He's just a stubborn fuck.
(Sam is one to talk, but that doesn't change anything.)
He grips Castiel back, helping him regain his footing, and looks completely and utterly unhappy with life in general.]
[He's been attempting to convince himself that his exhaustion and illness are normal; he'd broken his wrist before as a human, and had assorted other injuries over time, and he'd always felt tired while recovering. He'd been blaming all the rest on the severity of the breaks and poor nutrition, as well as mental stress, but Sam is right; he knows that isn't truly the case, even while he tries to pretend otherwise.
But it's not like there's a lot that can be done here, so he's trying to just wait it out. Everyone has more than enough to worry about without him adding to it, especially Sam, and Castiel has no desire at all to make him feel any more guilty than he already does especially when he looks that unhappy already.
It's impossible to pretend he doesn't have a fever when Sam touches his forehead though; it isn't ridiculously high--yet--but it is more than enough so to be unusual.]
I'm fine, Sam.
[He responds to the comment, though he's thankful for the stabilizing Sam provides. Castiel is quiet a moment, then decides that response probably isn't believable and elaborates a little.]
[He sits down without complaint in front of the fire, holding his jacket closer to himself with his good arm, closing his eyes briefly as the change in elevation makes his head spin. He frowns at Sam's words but reaches up to pull the sling carefully over his head, a little clumsy both because he just is and because he's extra uncoordinated at the moment, but doesn't bother attempting to unwrap the bandages with one hand.]
I doubt there is much to see, Sam.
[He's only letting Sam check so he doesn't fret forever.]
He starts to unwrap it, looking a bit unsure. Because he doesn't want bad news, and he doesn't want to be the bearer of it, and he just wants his friends to be okay, goddammit.]
Haven't been jacking up your arm with more push-ups, huh?
[Castiel isn't paying much attention as Sam unwraps his arm; other than the occasional flicker of his eyes he doesn't show any sign that it hurts, and he's a lot more interested in trying to fall asleep again. Or trying not to fall asleep. He isn't sure.]
I can barely manage them with two arms.
[He manages the correct joke in response, even though it's also true, frowning a little in discomfort as the last of the bandages are removed. There's a ton of slowly-healing bruising, which probably isn't much surprise, but there's also some strange reddish splotching across the arm as well. Castiel's eyebrows furrow slightly as he notices it, glancing briefly back up at Sam in question; he's pretty sure that's unusual.]
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