"You don't have to be dead to quit lecturing me or pissing me off," Dean
points out flatly, eyes still on the road.
He would be frustrated, if he felt as though he had the emotional
stamina - not over the fact that Sam is so hell-bent on dying, but over the
fact that it bothers Dean on some deep level that still exists within him.
This whole event has done nothing but prove that Sam is a liability for him
- he can already guess that it's going to get in the way of his plan to
take down Lucifer - but Dean knows he's already screwed. Had he and Sam
managed to avoid bumping into each other, they would have been just fine,
but now Dean needs to grapple with the fact that he does actually,
somewhere, care about what happens to his brother.
"You think that's the selfless thing to do? You think you'd be making it
easier on everyone by offering yourself up to a camp filled with assholes
who want to murder you? Sam the martyr." Though he says it with sarcasm,
Dean's tone still retains an empty quality, as though he's emotionally
divorced from the words he is speaking.
"Tell that to Bobby. To Cas. To everyone who's gonna be pretty damn glad
to see you around again. Tell them and see how selfless they think you are."
A pause.
"Tell that to me again, and I'm just gonna tell you you're more of a
selfish asshole than I am, and we both know I'm pretty bad off."
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"You don't have to be dead to quit lecturing me or pissing me off," Dean points out flatly, eyes still on the road.
He would be frustrated, if he felt as though he had the emotional stamina - not over the fact that Sam is so hell-bent on dying, but over the fact that it bothers Dean on some deep level that still exists within him. This whole event has done nothing but prove that Sam is a liability for him - he can already guess that it's going to get in the way of his plan to take down Lucifer - but Dean knows he's already screwed. Had he and Sam managed to avoid bumping into each other, they would have been just fine, but now Dean needs to grapple with the fact that he does actually, somewhere, care about what happens to his brother.
"You think that's the selfless thing to do? You think you'd be making it easier on everyone by offering yourself up to a camp filled with assholes who want to murder you? Sam the martyr." Though he says it with sarcasm, Dean's tone still retains an empty quality, as though he's emotionally divorced from the words he is speaking.
"Tell that to Bobby. To Cas. To everyone who's gonna be pretty damn glad to see you around again. Tell them and see how selfless they think you are."
A pause.
"Tell that to me again, and I'm just gonna tell you you're more of a selfish asshole than I am, and we both know I'm pretty bad off."